Day 26 to 28

Day 26:

In 2nd's birthday, The thing that regret the most in going there was just the food. We only had little of it. But that doesn't stop me from being 2nd's friend. Even though we didn't have that much food in our bellies, our time with each other is still precious and without it I would have already killed myself. Just like any kid would think, parents will never understand their children. All we did that day was watch E3 together and had a lot of fun talking S*** about the new games that are going to come out and make fun of the people that are hosting E3. 2nd gave us pie to eat and that was already enough and throughout the whole day we did nothing but sit and watch E3 like the nerds we are.

Day 27:
Today is My father's birthday and i feel depress because he want me to learn during the summer. I know it's good for me because College course helps in many ways in college so that I could finish it without worries and troubles. My beliefs about life are childish and retarded, that's why I want to change. Some people say that I shouldn't change but all the S*** that i have been hearing from my family, adults, and some other random people they seem to disagree with my Ideals.

"Life is everything, Everything is love, Love is Life"

This is my Ideal, Just love the way live, no matter how hard it's gonna be, just keep your head up and start walking forward. This words are more beneficial to the ones who need it. But some might only think that I am a Retard and would think that A child wouldn't know anything and everything they do is retarded.

Day 28:
Today is my driving test again and I failed again. I was doing everything right but I failed because there was this old lady right in front of me and I didn't stop until i got close to her and that was illegal apparently. So she failed, it's not her fault that she can be a bitch but she's just doing her job and I can't say anything about that because I don't know how it feels.
My dad got mad at me because I didn't pass the test the first time and now he is pissed off because I failed the second time. He started complaining about my Optimistic attitude and how I should change everything about me. I'm just a nerd that doesn't anything in the real world. I guess the real world isn't cut out for most of us and everything that we do must be according to what society tells us. Wouldn't be better if we live in a videogame or have powers to forget about life and start living that way you want. The Ideal world for a nerd is all about not being judge by people that are equal to them. Some say I have a nice life, which I do, but i say that everything about me is too complicated. My friends are my friends and they try so hard to support me by accepting me for who I am, my parents force me to be who they want me to be, and my video games are a F****** mistake in life that's why i have to change no matter what. I am going to stop what I do best and Start living how other people live. everything i want to be defies my parents expectation that's why i should just go to the marines and fake my death to go to a random country that doesn't know who i am. I wanted to be a teacher so that i could teach children that we have a fucked up society where every body just flows with the current. I also want to be an engineer to create inventions, machines that will make everybody's life better. and lastly I just want to die.

Resting in peace is a dream for me and lying as a dead corpse without worries is better than watching your people making a fool of themselves.

Thanks for reading.